P. 310-318
When we affirm and acknowledge who we are, falsehood, scarcity, separateness or any thought or emotion that projects these things cannot exist.
I keep reminding myself of the difference between my older view of affirmation as compared to the work we are called to do here and that is to affirm, to claim a truth that is already here. We are not attempting to create something or even convince ourselves of a truth. We are reminding ourselves of what is already here. When I bring the words to mind either out loud or within myself, “I know who I am, I know what I am, I know how I serve,” I am affirming the truth of who I am beyond my thinking mind beyond my intellect, and as I do that, as I align myself to that truth, nothing else but that truth can exist in that moment.
If I were to affirm for myself “I am a Divine Child of God, but I hate you,” it just doesn't work. Now my personality self might want to hate you and might have very strong emotions of separation about you, but when I affirm the truth of my Divine self the other stuff just cannot stick.
The small self, however, does not go away and still needs to be attended to at times. Even though it is not who you are, it is an aspect of your physical existence, your form. It is a part of your uniqueness or your unique expression of the Divine.
“Now the action of fear you have been expressed as in truth will not attend to it. And as you say, “Yes, I am here in truth,” the invitations of fear will be released, as long as you do not agree to them. If you can imagine that you are sitting in a chair and the worst thing you can imagine is whispered in your ear, align to the truth of what you are and sing the song “I am here.” If the fear that you would imagine is expressed in your world, use it as an opportunity to claim the Kingdom, which is the awareness of the Creator in all manifestation regardless of what presents. And if the small self who seeks to be comforted requires it, hold her, teach her, but do not give her fear because she will be known in it. There is no need.”
This is such a beautiful reflection of the Divine self taking care of the ego/personality, this limited wounded part of ourselves. It is not simply being gentle with ourselves, although that is a piece of it, it is more about bringing our limited understanding of self to the Divine within so these perceptions and judgements might be healed and released.
I don't think I ever quite understood that's saying of Jesus about new wineskins until connecting with this passage from the book again.
“No one sews a piece of unshrunk cloth on an old garment. If he does, the patch tears away from it, the new from the old, and a worse tear is made. And no one puts new wine into old wineskins. If he does, the wine will burst the skins—and the wine is destroyed, and so are the skins. But new wine is for fresh wineskins. Mark 2:21-22
My personal challenge here is that my mind,my intellect, wants to understand, and the way it understands is by attempting to fit new information into previously known categories. If you were a librarian and a new book came to you, you would diligently work on fitting it into your Dewey Decimal system. Even if you created a new category or sub-category, you would still be using pre-existing information to create a “slot” this book would fit into.
Or when we are studying a work like this we would say, “Oh, that's just like…” The mind is then satisfied, but the soul is left hungry. A Course in Miracles helps to create a discipline that pushes us to let go of the minds limited understanding. For instance, when one of the meditations in the workbook states, “I don't know what anything means.” Now The Book of Truth will make a distinction between thinking and knowing. The knowing it refers to is the awareness of the soul of what is true even though it might defy logic and the self-imposed limitations of the thinking mind.
Another Insight is that the thinking mind is very goal-oriented and wants to finish things. Whereas the soul is continually evolving in love and has no created goal in mind other than the continuation of its evolution in love.
“The action of this text so far has been reclamation in manifestation. You must begin to expect that, as you attend to our words, as you attend to the teachings, as you witness your life, that the transformation of it will be in accord with what you require to know yourself in truth. There is no object here, no finish line, no trophy at the end. The gift of the Kingdom is the gift of union, and it is here and will be known by you as you say, “Yes.”
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“Q: Can the Guides elaborate on the reference to the thunderbolt? They also talked about the facing of the self is not something to be frightened of, that it’s in glory. Can they add a little bit more about how this may present itself so we can work in congruence with the Divine Self as it embodies?”
(The thunderbolt referred to is on the bottom of p. 308:
“And in this alchemy, “I am agreeing to serve,” the thunderbolt comes and claims you each in an illumination in your field that will progress and reclaim you in the Kingdom. We have said it.” [Service is a reflection of the knowing We are all One])
“To know means to realize, and you only realize in the moment you stand in. You cannot know tomorrow, you cannot know yesterday. It happens in the now.”
“The stages of awareness and progression that one aligns as, as he calls the Kingdom into manifestation, will be highly dependent on the individual’s needs for evolution.”
“As we have taught you all, the small self’s investments about what should be will be seen by you. And as they are released, the True Self comes forth and witnesses the Kingdom that is already here. ”
“Q: When I feel the contrast in others and when I see the small structures that you
were talking about, instead of feeling blame or shame should I take that opportunity to see that as my bigger self?”
“Now, the old self seeks to re-create the known at every opportunity and it includes your reactions to the things in your world. As you move to the authority of the True Self as what you are, while the temptation may be there to recriminate, to fear, to blame, to argue, the tendency will be moving away because it is not in truth. ”
“Now Paul is interrupting us. “But sometimes we need anger.”
We reflected a bit on the biblical encounter of Jesus and the money changers in the temple
John 2:13-16 New International Version (NIV)
13 When it was almost time for the Jewish Passover, Jesus went up to Jerusalem. 14 In the temple courts he found people selling cattle, sheep and doves, and others sitting at tables exchanging money. 15 So he made a whip out of cords, and drove all from the temple courts, both sheep and cattle; he scattered the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables. 16 To those who sold doves he said, “Get these out of here! Stop turning my Father’s house into a market!”
Here is the same passage from The Holy Spirit’s Interpretation of the New Testament:
“(v 15 – 19)1 That day in the temple, the apostles noticed a change in Jesus as he looked on at the money changers and merchants. 2He had been laughing and talking with the apostles on the way to the temple, but now he stood quiet and stoic, watching the activity there.
3“Master,” an apostle asked, “is something wrong?”
4Jesus did not answer the apostle, but stood quiet, alert to judgments in his mind. 5He did not believe these judgments, and he did not react based on them, but he noticed them and let them go from his mind. 6Then Jesus left the temple without saying a word. 7The apostles were surprised, for they had expected him to pray and to teach.”
I’ll let you sit with that.
3“Master,” an apostle asked, “is something wrong?”
4Jesus did not answer the apostle, but stood quiet, alert to judgments in his mind. 5He did not believe these judgments, and he did not react based on them, but he noticed them and let them go from his mind. 6Then Jesus left the temple without saying a word. 7The apostles were surprised, for they had expected him to pray and to teach.”
I’ll let you sit with that.
“Q: If the small self makes a decision out of fear or anger, how come the True Self doesn’t step in and show them something different or allow them to go through with that choice?”
This is a great question!
In past language we might have said, “Why did God let this happen?”
In our continuing process of growth we are constantly learning. Situations arise (which we might say have been created by the higher self--in other words, these situation and the lessons they contain have been chosen by us) that we are challenged to respond to.
So much of our choice, and our learning is involved with how we respond to these life situations. Both the ego/personality self/small self and the Divine Self, Higher Self, Christ consciousness make choices.
This day, we are becoming more and more aware that the personality self will always choose in limitation, separateness and fear. For so many of us, this is the only way we knew ho to make choices.
Personally, I knew that I had a soul that was made in the image and likeness of God and yet this soul of mine, this spiritual nature, seemed to have very little to do with my interaction with the world and situations I found myself in. Without me realizing it totally consciously, the majority of decisions I made were coming from this limited perception of myself.
It was not until fairly recently on this plane of learning, that I realized my Divine self also chooses. As my awareness grows, my ability to allow the Divine within me to choose becomes stronger and more obvious.
Now I do not want to go into that old imagery of an angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other. That is just another childish perception of duality. There is, however, an aspect of self which A Course in Miracles refers to as “the decider.”
“The decider” is an aspect of self that moves either in the direction of Love or of fear. If we are in limitation, if we are living in a state of limited awareness, of separation, with our personality selves, then there will certainly be a major influence in deciding to align with fear or safety or protection. When living in a deeper awareness of the truth of who we are, “the decider” will much more easily flow to that sense of unity and love.
Again, a personal reflection here, when confronted with numerous life situations I still find that my first reflexive response is often one of fear or reflections of fear as anger, blame, shame, guilt. For years I made a valiant effort to attempt to eradicate all of these old knee-jerk reactions. To my dismay all of them still remain.
I sense that my work now is not about eradicating some lifelong reflexive reactions to people, places, and things but to recognize immediately after a reflex or knee-jerk reaction occurs that I have a choice to either go in that direction of fear and separateness or to hold the situation and to respond to a differently. My work has raised my level of choice to choosing higher vibration rather than lower, even though my first inclination might be to be upset or angry or heard more ashamed.
Peace, in love and gratitude.